I headed up to Coeur d’Alene a few days before the race. I was excited, nervous, and trying to figure out my game plan. The weather had been a little cold, the water freezing (56 degrees), and I still wasn’t dialed in on my nutrition plan. But, it was go time…
The morning of the race, I woke up starving so I ate a little yogurt, fruit, and granola. We headed over to the race. I dropped off my bags, put air in my tires, was getting my wetsuit on when I realized I forgot my GU. Oops!
I headed to the beach for the start. There were so many people!!! I think 2500 started the race. I started the swim on empty but it went pretty well…I was out of the water in a little over an hour…right where I wanted to be. Things seemed good but was I really ready for 112 miles on my bike?
The first loop of the bike felt pretty good. I was fast but I didn’t feel like I was going out too hard. Unfortunately, I think I ate too much too fast. My stomach started cramping at mile 40 so I stopped eating to let it calm down. I started to lose energy and just couldn’t really push. I knew I was in trouble when a guy next to me pulled a Snickers bar out of his special needs bag at the halfway mark. I almost started crying…it looked so good! I knew I was hungry. I tried to catch up by eating a couple of bananas and everything else I had…but it was too late. The second lap was miserable. I was passed by so many people. At his point, I was just trying to figure out how I would finish. Somehow, I was still just under 6 hrs for my 112 miles on my bike???
As I headed out of the tent to begin my marathon, I was offered gummy bears and pretzels…I couldn’t refuse. I saw my parents about .3 miles into the marathon and stopped. I had a little conversation and munched on some gummy bears. I reluctantly continued on. I chatted with some great people during my first lap…a man running his 35th Ironman and a professional mountain bike racer. They both looked at me like I was crazy when I told them I had a 1 and 3 year old. I abandoned my nutrition strategy at mile 2 and started drinking coke and eating whatever looked good. First lap was ok (just under 2 hrs) then I was done. I saw my husband with my girls. Just hanging out, drinking a beer. That’s when it really hit me…I really didn’t want to be out there. I struggled through the second half of the marathon. So much hip pain (don’t know where that came from). I was determined to finish…giving up just never seemed like an option. So I walked and walked and walked.
Approaching the last turn before heading to the finish line, the guy I was walking with suggested we run to finish strong. He commented on how emotional people get every time they finish even if they’ve finished before. Then he looked over and I was bawling. All I could get out was, “I just want to see my girls.” And then, there they were…on the sidewalk cheering for their mommy. The highlight on a pretty miserable 12 hours. Makena gave me a bracelet and it was kisses from Chloe and Tim. The finish was pure relief.
CDA Finish
So, I finished in 12 hours and 17 minutes. Not what I was hoping for but sometimes just finishing is good enough. And this day it was.
Looking back, I don’t think I was mentally, physically, or emotionally ready for an Ironman. I don’t think I really wanted it. Maybe someday I’ll go for it again. But, in the meantime I’m going to stick to shorter distances and enjoy my family.